November 2011
i just booked $100 return flights to dunedin to see my best friend! yayayayay life just gets better and better! :D
noshamenovember:
the marks on my thighs are angry and red; there is too much of me and too little skin. lately, bravery means leaving the house each day knowing there will be eyes on me. it means standing in silence when novels pool inside my eyes. I keep wondering if I’ll make it. I think pieces of me might be sick forever. I try so hard to findthe good, the right, the truth. why am I the...
noshamenovember:
Ever since I was little I let my mind go to places that I don’t want it to go. I remember looking in the mirror and just staring at myself for a prolonged period of time, just wondering who I was and if that was really me. It scared me beyond belief because there was no proof, nothing to let my mind rest on, I had hopped the fence on the boundary line of normal thought and was...
Two hundred and twelve
blindingchaos:
Her words were thick like the jars of honey we would buy in the summertime, with pauses as wide as the countryside or an ocean in between, as if they could take everything from her.
LOVING LIFE
i have never appreciated my city as much as i do tonight, driving across the harbour bridge with the sky tower all lit up in the distance, and the sea all around and good friends next to me… AUCKLAND WHY DID I EVER LEAVE YOU? i’m LOVING being home… i went to a glow in the dark minigolf course today which was so fun! seeing everyone again still feels unreal and a bit like a dream...
HOME!
i’m home I’M HOME I’M HOME after thirty hours of travel i am finally back in new zealand!
this is the weirdest and most amazing thing in the world, i feel like i never left! everything is the same, everyone is the same and i just had the most incredible afternoon driving around surprising all my friends :) i am SO happy to be home, no time to be depressed because of what’s...
noshamenovember:
The first time you learn about shame it’s with God on your tongue and doubt in between your crooked teeth, scabs on your knees that aren’t from praying and the bible burning through the wood of your nightstand. The second time you find shame it’s naked and moaning in your father’s VCR, burning behind your eyelids because you didn’t close your eyes fast enough — because you...
pavorst:
I feel as though I am doing you a great injustice, not telling you that whatever begins must have an end. When we fall, we are in such a state of euphoria that the ending is so far away from us. We do not ever think, for one moment, that perhaps happiness comes with a cost. It is when we make sacrifices for each other, when we really devote ourselves to the betterment of each other’s...
stuck in the most painfully ironic situation of trying to help you and loving you so much at the same time :( when will i be the one on the other side of this?
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“I wonder if Beethoven held his breath the first time his fingers touched the...”
– Andrea Gibson (via loveyourchaos)
the most insane, incredible, hilarious, inspiring, infuriating and amazing ten months of my life has come to an end and i’m struggling SO much to deal with this strange emptiness after such a huge buildup. i cried my eyes out saying goodbye to my australian friends who i have to part ways with after a year of forming the most intense friendships i’ve ever experienced and i just feel a...
tonight is our last night in our house living together, all twenty six of us, and it feels so fucking weird to be leaving this crazy dysfunctional family i have grown to love. it’s been a strange night of singing and laughter and tears and now it’s five in the morning and once again i am the last one awake dealing with my thoughts by myself.
i am flying home in seven days, back to new...
“Today you are you, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is youer...”
– Dr. Seuss (Submitted by ohhaileana)
“Just because you’re an atheist, that doesn’t mean you wouldn’t love for things...”
– Jonathan Safran Foer (via black-wolves)
Anonymous asked: I still stalk you homie. xxx
i have seventeen days left of my programme here in israel and when i think about the end it’s the most emotional thing in the world… and now i have another struggle with deciding whether to visit england afterwards or come straight home… i wish someone could make all my decisions for me.
“Remember, you cannot be both young and wise. Young people who pretend to be wise...”
– Stephen Colbert (via imfantasyparade) 