July 2010
lasso:
I’m really in the mood to write. Or just talk at length. Anything really. I have flashes of thoughts that could lead to sentences but they’re gone in an instant and my mind doesn’t bring them back.
the real problem with humankind is our constant demand for definition. it’s like we can’t feel complete in who we are without using words that convey our own complexity to someone else, or even just to ourselves. we struggle with this so intensely that everything now has connotations and levels and references running deeper and darker until we lose sight of what simply is. a smile is a...
lasso-deactivated20110505-deact asked: :)
Day 1 – Do you believe in God?/What religion are you?
Day 2 – Do you believe in an afterlife? What do you believe happens when you die?
Day 3 – Are you proud to be from whatever country you are from?
Day 4 – What is your view on gay marriage?
Day 5 – Do you think sex before marriage is okay?
Day 6 – What are...
Day 1 – Do you believe in God?/What religion are you?
Day 2 – Do you believe in an afterlife? What do you believe happens when you die?
Day 3 – Are you proud to be from whatever country you are from?
Day 4 – What is your view on gay marriage?
Day 5 – Do you think sex before marriage is okay?
Day 6 – What are...
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colorsofcorruption:
jessieroth-:
but you know, when I was younger I always used to wonder if I was special. if other people, the people I saw everyday and knew by name or the strangers I passed on the street and smiled at, felt and observed and thought and questioned the world the way I did. I thought so fucking much and had so many fucking questions and as a tiny seven year old kid, I always...
“All things are bound in the same fatal chains.”
– Unknown (via thatcoolpanini)
inception: mind=blown.
today i went shopping and bought two super cute dresses for $60! :) i am extreeemely happy with my purchases. and i’m going to see inception tonight which will hopefully be epic - there’s been so much hype about it that i’m 99% convinced it’s going to be amazing. :) catch you tumbly folk later! xx
holy fuck!
i returned from the land of the shower to see a whole heap of likes/reblogs and a new follower! thank you guys so much! :) and hello autumeyes! <3
people are always trying to stick their little pieces of coloured glass into me. influences and opinions and judgements are shoved and jabbed and pushed from all angles until who knows where i finish and the rest of the world begins. i am the patchwork sea where every trickle of an idea has come to rest. i am a labyrinth upon myself, a storage vessel for everyone’s concepts that craved...
lucid dreaming experience!
that was so incredibly trippy! at first it felt like it wasn’t working because i was just imagining scenarios that i wanted to dream about, but then all of a sudden it switched into my body feeling and living the dreams except i knew it was happening. whenever i wanted i could just snap out and wake up, then when i closed my eyes again i picked up from where i was before. i had complete...
i’m really disorientated right now because i accidentally fell asleep at 6pm and woke up again at midnight. gah. so i’m really exhausted but finding it really hard to actually get to sleep - and i miss my sleep-in tomorrow to get extra calculus help. :(
on the plus side, these are ideal circumstances to try lucid dreaming! :3 i’ll post whether or not this is successful in the...
thank you lizzy! :) and i did not mean to induce tears, i am very sorry! hug to the north shore coming your way :3 xx
there are plants that grow inside me. they twist and contort their way through my body, draining all my thoughts to fuel little miracles. they are but seedlings, tiny sprouts still wondering why they live at all, but they hold onto happy hope. they are praying that you will not cut them down on those days where your mind is clouded by rage. there is so much that is ugly here and maybe it is too...
“Maybe this is why so many serial killers work in pairs. It’s nice not to feel...”
– Lullaby, Chuck Palahniuk
i just can’t find the energy to sort my life out right now. i know what’s wrong, i know how to fix it and i know that i need to do it. but i don’t have the motivation to talk it out, write it out, sing it out… or anything. i need inspiration.
i am so jealous right now and i hate this feeling. i have no right to be so protective, but something makes me feel so drawn to you. i think i know you in ways that nobody else does, and although this doesn’t justify my envy, it makes it the tiniest bit more acceptable - at least in my mind.
bdiizard:
This is going to sound stupid, but sometimes I look in the mirror and I don’t recognise myself. Like, I just stare at my reflection and say “who the fuck are you?” because in my mind I don’t look the way I do in the mirror.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is 100% me.
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going to georgia's house! yay :3
i am ridiculously attracted to guys that are a little bit fucked up. i think it’s because i need someone whose life is as confused as my thoughts can be.
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talikins:
i always think about how mortified i would be if someone from school found my tumblr…but at the same time i kind of want them to discover a different and deeper side of me.
hey.
we share a brain.
fantastic news! it shall be a pleasure sharing this brain with you. :D
i always think about how mortified i would be if someone from school found my tumblr…but at the same time i kind of want them to discover a different and deeper side of me.
linked fingers and wild laughter is what we want to look like. golden and sandy and perfect, the setting was made for this and we feel like we’d be wasting happiness if we didn’t do it. this is our chance to capture the cliche we want so desperately to become, so we say yes. and they count down, three two one, and we plaster on eyes of elation and smile like we will be airbourne...
today was good. :) i only had one class (english) which was cut short because of assembly. the production cast did a performance which was so terribly hilarious that i was crying with laughter - DEFINITELY buying tickets to the real thing! then we went into town to see a movie for media studies, but because the movie was R16 i had to see another movie by myself. cool. haha but it was good because...
why are you so confusing! :( i strongly dislike receiving mixed messages.
sometimes i wonder if things would be different for me if i was beautiful
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i want the control now, i’m sick and scared of being so powerless. you have so much dominance over me and sometimes i think i am constantly a step behind, competing for a position i’ll never have.
i am trying to forget who you were and remember who you are but all i see is last december. the stars and the sky and the summer are spinning in circles around me and it is too late, a whirlpool has begun inside my chest and it is grabbing every piece of you it can find. i am not doing this alone, i will drag you with me.
i am the heavy ground thick with dust that will exist long after we both...
bitteroblivion asked: just thought you might want to know, out of anyone on tumblr i've liked more of your posts then anyone elses :)
“If you aren’t just a little bit depressed, then you aren’t paying very much...”
– Pete Wentz (via achieving) (via blank-waves)
i'm going to do the 30 day rant challenge, because...
sorry for the 2 ‘read more’s in a row! that last one was just kinda spontaneous. :3 i have about 10 pics i want to reblog right now but i’ll save them so i don’t spam your dashboards! :) i have a lot that i should be doing right now - my english research assignment, calculus homework, biology test study, media studies logbook etc. but as i expected, tumblr managed to weave...
it starts with excuses. ‘it was the right time’ and ‘i didn’t even have that much’. but i know the truth and you don’t try hard enough to hide it.
then we both pretend. i’m pretending that i don’t care, that it’s fine with me, and you’re pretending that we still have something in common. and as soon as we start lying to each other i know...
i am dreaming.
i am dreaming of coffee shops and cobbled streets and buildings that rise from nowhere. signs dangle lopsided from ancient doors, beckoning us into strange little places. down narrow paths we find spiral staircases that take us to alcoves invisible to any map. no room for cars on these happy terraces dotted with tables and wooden chairs where two sit in wonderland.
i am dreaming...
